Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Alfonso VI and the Spoils of Andalus

The three sons of Ferdinand fought amongst themselves,

United by bad blood.

The kingdoms of poetry were kingdoms of war.

None of the brilliance of scholars and scientists,

Nor philosophy, religion or verse

Could keep those little Taifa states from vicious feuding.

Not even the polylobed and interlacing arches

Of Cordoba’s Great Mosque

Could keep brothers from killing each other.

To Sancho,his eldest,Ferdinand gave Castile;

On the second son, Alfonso, he bestowed the richest portion, León;

And to the youngest,Garcia,fell Galicia’s realm.

Coveting his lands,Sancho and Alfonso

Drove their brother Garcia into exile

Then turned against each other with a vengeance.

In Seville, the guest of al-Mutamid,

Garcia wandered the irrigated gardens,

Refreshed by miraculous fountains,

And, seated on silk cushions amid colonnades,

Smiled as the whole court jousted in verse.

Likewise,Alfonso,defeated and banished,in turn,

Saw for the first time the botanical gardens of Toledo,

Enjoying the hospitality of al-Mamun,

And banqueted in columned palaces

With fellow guests in silk perfumed robes,

And played manqala with priceless ivory pieces.

He admired the easy mingling of Mozarabic craftsmen,

Jewish physicans and Muslim astronomers,

And began to dream of ruling such a realm.

Within a few years,the mighty Sancho was betrayed

And assassinated outside Zamora,

So that Alfonso was free to return

And seize the Christian kingdoms for himself;

And, after a few years, al-Mamun also

Fell to an enemy’s dagger, and was succeeded

By his corrupt weak grandson al-Qadir,

So, seeing his chance, the ambitious Alfonso

Who had so long dreamed of this moment,

Conquered Toledo without a fight,

Promising its citizens safety, property and freedom of worship;

Thus, he took possession of the most glorious citadel in Castile,

With all the wonders the Muslims bequeathed;

Palaces and courtyards resonating with poetry and song;

The qasidas of Ibn Zaydun, all passion and doom;

The pennants of the poetic champions,

Carried out of the Arabian deserts.

St Anthony's Tongue

The patron saint of lost objects,

And the cat got his tongue.

A hazardous dagger,

A necromancer’s wand.

A tiny shrivelled titbit of flesh

In a crystal cylinder.

The nub.


Bodies: immortal absences.

The first,second and third- class relics

Of Catholic imagination.

From a lullaby baby

To a dismembered corpse.


There has to be proof.

Scientists of the invisible,

Physicists of love,

We enter equations

In our book-keeping

And feel for a warm true body in the night.

Cathar Castles

Dew on the grapevines

in the Aude valley,

among the beeches and pines;

through narrow gorges,

vaginas of the Goddess,

under hermit caves.

Climb through privet and scrub oak

to Puilaurens,clinging

to the limestone,

up to the crenellated walls.

The people dug their fingers

into this earth,and cultivated

each other’s bodies

to feel the joy

that troubadours chanted

in the green bird tongue.

Only in that Bible

was there revelation.

A ghost,they say,

patrols these ruins:

the lady Blanche of Bourbon,

wife of King Peter the Cruel,

who smothered her to death

when beauty had outlived usefulness.

Along the north wall

the latrines remain,

where elegant courtiers-

Lucifer's angels-

would bare their white bums

over the vertiginous abyss.


Quèrebus on its limestone pinnacle:

hallucination luring you upwards

on steps hewn from the rock;

the wind can blow a man

straight off the mountain.

In the keep’s core you circle

the Gothic chamber-

solar sanctum of the imagined Grail-

and in the dank passages

and gloomy chambers illuminated

only by arrow-slits,

you feel the terrible heaviness

that stimulates flight.

Little Monsters

God is the persecutor of newborn children; he it is who sends tiny babies to eternal flames.


                                                                                            Julian of Eclanum


These hundred thousand years of Homo sapiens sapiens,

Trillions of neural connections in the brain…

Look at all the cannibals killing their children,

Mutilating, abandoning, torturing and raping,

Prostituting them for their own needs.

All their self-hatred they pour into their babies,

They punish them for their own sins,

Break its legs, tear its eyes out,

Touch its privates, kick it to death.

The guilty one, the persecutor.

What can the people do with their poisons

But pour them into wars and slavery,

And into their children’s veins?


The mother kills her baby

Because it might grow up to be a sorcerer,

Because it is a terrible clinging mouth,

Because she is angry with her husband

Or afraid he will leave her foraother woman,

She tosses the newborn to the sows

And watches them devour it;

She kills it and feeds it to its siblings;

She buries it alive in a shallow hole

So its brothers may see it suffocating

And though they try to save it

Their mother stamps it deep into the earth

Until it is dead.


Stroking, masturbating and sucking

Their children’s’ genitals,

The parents amuse themselves,

In incestuous trance;

Overcoming their own depression.

The men bugger the boys’ mouths and arses,

Turning themselves from victims into conquerors,

To purge their mother-polluted blood

With powerful semen

And show them to eat and not be eaten.

Their selves split into others,

And act out the scenes again and again,

Sick and dreaming.

They will march to war

To mend their broken selves,

And cannibalize the enemy,

Devour his penis, muscles and tongue,

Absorbing their strength.


The men trade seashells

Reddened with ochre

To redeem the souls of murdered newborns.

They fondle and gaze at their precious shells

For hours on end, healing their hurts.


Demons are our wetnurses.

They will beat the bewitched child

For daring to grow up and separate,

To defy their domination with each breath.

Look at the devils-how like children they are-

Dancing, lauging, farting and joking!

Have you felt the joyous rage, the rising?

A seizure in the hippocampus,the amygdala,

Releasing God from the poor cramped body.

In the bigman’s house

His enemy’s severed head is kept in honour,

Fed on choice morsels

And consulted for oracles.

At the tree hung with human placentas

The Serpent Lady reigns

Over a fearful congregation;

Her priests cut off their own genitals

And run riot through the town.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Futures

See the traders forming alliances or operating solo,

Roaming widely or staying still,

Chasing one particular stock or voracious for all,

Scheming and reacting, living and dying,

Speculating in their magic mirrors.

As ciphers jittering on a screen

Decide the rise and fall of civilisations,

And the Brownian motion of algorithms

Tips the market this way and that.

Unhappy hunters, follow the running stag

That will lead you to your doom!

The predator, it seems, becomes the prey.

What to do when the funhouse isn’t fun any more?

Because I Am Lonely I Know I Am Alive

They are building the Tower of Babel again,

With new technology but old ambitions.

As before,there will be lies and simulations.

What is it in man that he should hate himself

And purpose his own damnation?

I cannot live in that Tower;

Let me out into the wilderness.

I am with the nobodies, the everybodies.

They call themselves superior who conquer

With force,not with reason.

The bombs that are dropping on them over there

Are dropping on us here.

Grace

It is the third person, the Holy Ghost,

That moves when she moves.

Her eyelids are theology to me;

The whorls in her fingertips

Are a Milky Way.

Because she exists I can be sure

That God is real, and everywhere.

Catholic no more,I am thankful

For the chalices and vestments

An adolescent boy cast off in anger,

For the Midnight Masses

And the Ave Marias;

Without them I could not appreciate

This charisma, this grace.

Beauty’s rebellion tutors me

In strictures of freedom;

There is a glamour in society

That mediates the pain.

Suddenly a miraculous incident

Brings the distant near;

And wretched struggling desire

Becomes the hope of love.

Neither work nor knowledge

Have any place here;

One simply must believe.

Mystical body,precious cult

I serve, in union most alone!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Lost Languages

She was the last one, the last speaker,

And the words came slowly to her now,

There was no-one left to talk to,

No-one to understand,

An old woman,more and more alone,

A whole world disappearing.

She lay on the bed in her small house,

The grammar of her body coming apart,

All the precious exact names for reindeer

Muted and killed.

Soon she would be gone

Back to the place where the words came from.


When Captain Cook’s scientists

First discovered it off Hawaii,

They named the darkfaced fish “Moorish idol”,

Pleased with their invention,

They sketched it and classified it,

Never consulting the Hawaiians,

Who had always known it as kihikihi,

“Crescent shaped,” “sailing zigzag”.


The Marovo of the Solomon Islands

Observed every aspect of fishes’ behaviour

And named them precisely:

Ukuka “the behaviour of shoals

When individuals drift and circle as if drunk,”

Udumu,” a large school so closely packed

As to resemble a single object,”

Sakoto, “quiet almost motionless schools at rest,

Looking like a gathering of mourners.”


The Borôro people of the Amazon

Would specify exact times for meetings

By coded gestures of arm and hand

Denoting precise angle and location

Of the sun in the sky at the chosen hour

And by pointing to various parts

Of head,face and neck.


The Nivkhs of Outer Manchuria

Employed twenty-seven different classifiers

To count and place precisely

Every possible object in the world.

There was nothing that could not be designated

In the memory theatre they lived in.

They counted the suns and moons for their children.

They sang their songs alone.

At the Chateau Lacoste

Under the stone arch of the Goats’ Gate,

Past shuttered houses,crouched and spying,

You climb over cobbles to the wolf in the mist…

Beloved residence of the Marquis de Sade,

Fortress-theatre of reckless imagination ,

Where the same man who would revel

With his children at hide-and-seek

Also choreographed pornographic fiestas

With virgins, valets and whores.

Here he could always return in trouble,

Fleeing the law and enemies’ revenge,

Safe among the contrary peasants

Who shrugged off his every scandal

As the normal antics of a nobleman

And never ,to the end,betrayed him,

Though he scorned them as canaille.


From the ruined ramparts,you survey

Foreboding country,the mother wolf

That whelped a criminal-martyr.

Red clay soil and dark green olive trees,

Mustard yellow and orange of autumn,

A breeze in the rosemary and thyme...

You wander the narrow stone alleys

At twilight ,the buildings turning gold

Then yellow,then grey-white...

France will be a part of you,always,

However far from her superb excess,

Urging abandon,rebellion and love.

What’s a man without obsessions and delusions?

One carries on,despite the knowledge

That finally,the longsuffering villagers

Turned on their disgraced seigneur

And tore his hated castle down.

The Ship of Theseus

Not a plank or nail

Of the original survives,

All replaced,

Yet the same craft it is;-

The Ship of Theseus,

My paper boat

On an autumn pond

In the park

Where I never was.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Demonology

Something in the blood

Calls you back to the black book.

Would you rise to the seventh hierarchy

And abide among the Furies,

Spreading discord,evil and war,

Ruled by Abaddon?


You can call me La Rue.

A priest condemned to the fires.

The dukes of Hell come riding to my door.


Abraxas,

Guide me by this opal ring

In the ways of heresy.

These are my scorpion days.


Sound the bells,

Drive evil away!

Subtle perversion is my mistress.

What does the black book counsel?

Read it backwards.

Its letters are written in blood.


There’s a black dog at the crossroads,

Always there as I approach.

In a ruined church at midnight

Where toads spit venom on the shattered altar

The cursed priest lifts the black Host.


The fallen angel Caim

Will answer your questions with burning ash.

See,he is that blackbird on a branch at your window.

He will open your ears

To the language of animals

And the running waters.


Look about you: the possessed

Walk side by side with you on the streets,

No different from you,

Their souls controlled by others.


Babylonian voices take me over.

The Devil comes tall and handsome,

Dressed all in black,

Full of ingenious persuasion,

Eloquent and unknown.


Imp in a bottle,

Are you good or evil today?

With English words

I catch poems in my incantation bowl.


Satanael,speak to me

In the flames of falling stars!

It was you, they say, who created Adam

Then saw he was imperfect,

With life leaking from his right foot

And a forefinger in the shape of a serpent.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Inhale/Exhale

Cadmium orange and ivory the Kalahari, furred with grasses and stunted trees, and then the viridian myriad-rivering pale-gold-crystalline lagoon-glittered yellow-grass-floodplain-drenching lily-eyed Okavango Delta,delicate as a bee-eater poised on a branch,and the rainstorm-scenting elephant herds stride in,cutting intricate trails through the tawny grasses, carrying the winter deluge on their trunks..their hearts are little raindrops bulging towards the earth and their ears whud thunder across the wetlands, they plunge with glee in the blissful pools,frolicking and tumbling,thwacking their trunks in delight...

Oh carmine and crimson sunsets!The air is thick with stabbing,swallowing,flapping,screeching,cackling birds!Herds of impala race through the water,silhouetted in explosions of spray...Buffalo by the thousand,gently bellowing,steaming the misty morning air with their breath,steadily advance across the shallows,curved horns one endless joyous rhythm...

Green specks of phytoplankton in bloom drift through sunbeams in the Alaskan waters...the planet rolls on its axis,the sun stands proud and millions of herrings emerge from deep water, heading for the shallows to spawn,pulsing in waves along the shoreline and all is a white soup of milt...flocks of common murres lance down through green water in pursuit of prey,trailing comet-flares of bubbles...

Steller sea lions spin through green gloom,almost colliding but twisting away at the last instant..one bull sea lion floats broken and doome don the surface,as a pod of orcas keeps charging in and ramming his body with brutal tail whacks,making pass after pass, remorselessly methodically killing him, then pulling him underwater in pairs to tear his flesh with ther teeth..
In the still morning air come the exhalations of humpback whales,white plumes smoking in the blue air,rasping and foghorning..

Across the green Serengeti the myriads of white-bearded wildebeest migrate,one endless wave for a moment,then dispersing again in exquisite patterns...a lioness sits Buddha-like surveying the distance with serene golden eyes..tall dust devils twist high into the air and undulate across the horizon...a female wildebeest on the move ,looking out for cheetahs and hyenas,walks away from the herd,lies down on her side and heaves her baby out of her body,her head turned to watch the calf emerge...

Arctic summer: the ice is splitting and turquoise pools riddle the expanses in the heat shimmer...narwhals surface and joust with their tusks in an icehole...snowgeese flock in the sky...enormous swarms of sea snails and jellyfish ride the North Atlantic Drift...blood is scarlet on the ice as a polar bear rips skin and blubber from a slaughtered seal..wobbling in masses, walruses clash and quarrel,honking,spitting and stabbing at each other with their tusks,then flop back into stupor,farting and dribbling through the warm afternoons...

Up the cold clear rivers of British Columbia the salmon are returning,hard against the currents to shed their lives,-chum,coho,pink,sockeye and chinook...grizzly bears stand on top of the river falls,catching leaping salmon in their open mouths ...The wolf-eyed trees watch every motion,every heartbeat in their green sky, and thunderstorms drip under the Spirit Bear’s claws...

In the winter waters off South Africa, in the clash of the Agulhas and Benguela Currents, billions of pilchards gather in mammoth shoals, while the great ocean’s predators converge to feast, the sharks,dolphins,fur seals and Bryde’s whales , and gannets in myriads bomb into the waves, slicing down through the foam..waltzing dolphin pods patiently herd the massive globes of pilchards to the surface, and the mayhem begins...

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Catholic Magic

It is time for the Mass of St Secaire: the Gascon peasants prevail upon their priest too kill a man with the Liturgy, saying Mass backwards in a ruined church, with a black Host ,ending on the stroke of midnight; thereafter, the chosen sacrifice slowly withers away of a wasting disease.

Pope Silvester II pores over Arabic astronomical treatises in secret; the mechanical talking head prophesies in the stillness of his chambers, answering whichever questions he puts to it..

Pope Honorius III is writing a grimoire by night.Babylonian demons stir about him; his jewelled ring harbours shifting lights.This secret work is intended to sit beside the Roman Ritual in a country priest’s library. I conjure you, O Book, that you be profitable to those who use you in all their affairs, I conjure you, by the power of the blood of Jesus Christ, that is contained in the chalice, that you be good to them who read you.

There will be revolutions,assassinations,hidden crimes;demons will be invoked and set to work;there will be profit in terror, business without limits.Pacts will be made with nefarious powers.

They should have used the Malleus Maleficorum on me...-All those wretched Sunday mornings in church,bored out of my adolescent mind,making up little sins in the confessional to keep the priest happy,saying penance like a plastic robot,the day long forgotten when Father Daly had proudly told my mother: “By God, that boy’s full of religion!”

Monday, July 19, 2010

Scent of the Jaguar

A low vibration from out of the dark.

A gruff hoarse rumble.

A guttural war-cry

Rising to crescendo.

A coughing grunt

That bristles the trees.

Under the hunter’s moon.

There is something out there. In here.

Secret brother,stay alive!


Mists cling to the forest canopy,

Incandescent in the moonlight,

And a chacalaca calls.

In a limestone hill cave

Chac is carved on the wall,

With erect penis

And extended tongue,

Patron of the blood-letter,

The willing sacrifice.

Soft rumours of running water

Whisper off the walls,

Hushed voices from the underworld.


In a bag of jaguar leather

The shaman stores his medicine;

Tonight he will paint himself

Like the jaguar,

Prowl, climb, swim, stalk and kill

While the jungle holds its breath.


Here is a ceramic pot

Shaped like a jaguar’s head

With the mouth emitting

An ecstatic howl;

Once it was used

To administer psychotropic enemas

To shamans and kings.


Mesmeric stare

Dispassionate and all-powerful

And that ominous odour,

Lithe rippling burnished gold

Splotched and flecked

With dark code,

It steals in and out

Of this world.

It snaps vertebrae,

Crumples skulls,

Crushes windpipes,

Strips bodies to the bone.


Were-jaguars, the Olmecs,

Deforming their heads

To emulate the great cat’s skull...

See the serpentine mosaics at La Venta,

Depicting ferocious jaguars,

The colossal basalt jaguar heads

And the jaguar altars close by...

The Olmec kings were descended

From the union of human women

And male jaguars,

Babyfaced and snarling,

Clawed and fanged for victory,

Dream-princes of the night.


The Jaguar Knights are dancing

With shields and clubs,

The warriors of the Maya,the Inca,the Aztecs,

Roaring,hissing,growling,

Swallowing the night-beast’s supremacy,

To hold the world under their claws

And suffer no enemies.


The jaguar stalks the stars

Above Copán,

Escorting the sun to dawn;

The god-cat’s moon eyes

Follow the action

On the ball court;

Soon rich blood will be drawn.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

(In)finite

                                              You know, I was no Einstein.

                                                                     Albert Einstein


Infinity,or the illusion of it,

Keeps me in business.

My world is finite, without edge.

Demented concepts are my speciality,

All there is,in the end.

Neither and both are my twins.


I can’t help thinking of all the mathematicians

Who have killed themselves...

Did numbers drive them mad

Or were they just lonely like the rest of us?


On a winter beach,

Picking up stones and releasing them

If they do not quite possess the shape I want,

I try to catch the curve of things,

The distance within.

Each thought is like a message from a neutron star.


I look at my hands,

Ridged and veined,slightly calloused,

And remember they were made

In the cores of stars.


My life is a Möbius strip,

A Klein bottle.

There’s terror in the beauty,

Panic in the idleness.


I am trying in vain to make a universe

That looks a little like this one.

All I knw is that nothing can be perfectly smooth

Or perfectly still.


At night from my window

I can see the Ferris wheel on the pier,

Lit up and turning.

Somehow everything fits together

And no-one really knows how.


Will the cosmos one day collapse in on itself

And disappear into the tinest dot

Only to be born again

With the same ecstasy and terror?

Will history repeat itself entire

And find me standing here,this moment, once more?

Friday, July 16, 2010

The Lost Books

I have read them all, the lost books:

Homer’s Margites,Confucius’s Book of Music,

Love’s Labour’s Won and Byron’s Memoirs,

The burnt plays of Aeschylus and Dead Souls Part Two...


No words you will ever read could be as marvellous

As those, forever invisible,

Wyverns and griffons in the ether.


Literature began with a savage laugh.

Margites the human monster, the absurd puppet,

Blunders along, ignorant and inept,

A fool worthy of his own epic,

Still amusing the blind old entertainer in his old age.


The silent voices cry out

Like the two hundred and sixty Confucian scholars

Buried alive on the orders of the Emperor Shih-huang-ti

To prevent them from reconstructing the classics from memory.


One thinks of the precious box of papers

Flaubert buried in his garden at Croisset

As the Prussian army advanced across France;

Letters ,notes and drafts for unwritten works,

Perhaps the proposed satire on socialism

Or his Second Empire novel.


And Rimbaud’s notebook,

Misplaced by the friend to whom it was entrusted,

With fifty or sixty unpublished poems,

The only one of which he could recall

"Something about geese and ducks

Splashing around in a pond.”

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Astronomy for the Damned (The Lonely Astronaut)

From the atmospheres and oceans of the primeval Earth

These molecules of me...

Here is the information, the nucleic acids of words.

This instant in the billionfold history of a planet.

The instincts of the hunter-gatherer.

Climb the steps of the ziggurat, astronaut,

Ascend into the cockpit of time.

Listen to the stars,

Speaking in the language of dolphins.


Stars,nurses of life and death,

We are your holy barbarians.

Fish,reptile,mammal,human,

An embryo is evolving in the womb.

The thoughts of every animal on earth

Are in my brain.

Can the elegance of science

Redeem me?


To hike the mountains of Mars

Is my vocation;

Gas, dust and stars,

Billions on billions of stars,

Spin me a galaxy

To call my own.


Golden-helmeted for the crusade,

Jousting with stellar invaders,

I breathe the artificial air

Of unread poems.


Death and time work their magic

On my secret evolution;

The chemistry of proteins,

The neurology of brains-

My poetry!

(Lightning and ultraviolet

Breaking apart the simple molecules

Of the primitive atmosphere,

The fragments recombining

Into ever more complexity,

Then dissolving in the oceans...)


I can see great herds of trilobites hunting across the Cambrian ocean floors...

Myriads of superb adaptations succeeding one another with vertiginous speed..

I can see the first trees shoving against the sky...

God’s parasites, honey-thieves of light and air,

Carbon-pirates flying the skull and crossbones,

We sacred animals ravage the land as fast as we imagine it.

Inhaling and exhaling one another,

We suckle at the same teats.

Into the cell’s subtle labyrinth I voyage-

A galaxy evolved over aeons,

Self-maintaining, transforming molecules,

Storing energy, plotting its own reproduction,

A microdot of frenzy and patience.

Hectic nucleus, whirling coils and strands,

Is there any end to your wisdom?

Multitudinous nucleotides bear me in their sea-snake swarm...

Limitless combinations await us,

The undreamt faces and minds in the core,

Future monarchs of mankind!


The nebulae are on fire with death;

Defunct wraith-worlds drift near the core-star,

The remnant sun a small hot star,

Collapsed to unimaginable density,

Cooling with degenerate indifference

To a black dwarf.


Rorschach blobs of galaxies,

Exist for just a few seconds

Then dissolve,only to reform,

Dying, or committing suicide.

Star-clusters plunge through the Milky Way plane

And out the other side,

To slow,reverse and hurtle back again.

Hot newborn stars squawl in the spiral arms.

Behind my eyes.

In the cerebral cortex.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

August Afternoon in Paris

Beloved Sunday, the soul’s respite...

The shutters have come down on cafés and boulangeries.The bellowing traffic is muffled and thinned.

Empty chairs around the fountain in the park.

The waiter almost smiles.

I find a stone bench by the Seine and watch the barges pass by.

It’s not my actions I remember most, it’s my inactions; the not-done is my gift to the world.I am everything that I have not performed.

Can’t you see that everything has changed- and nothing? All your life you have been fooled by appearances.All your life has been ruled by fear.

In the terrace gardens of the Cluny Museum, the Unicorn Forest rustles with poems and quests; the Lower Mysteries of Paris are everywhere around you, once you start to see.

In the flea market at Clignancourt I look into an antique gilded mirror:could that be the face of an eighteenth-century aristocrat, strutting the opulent corridors of Versailles(where the rulers of the world would crouch anywhere they pleased for a shit)? No, rather a peasant, a potato-eater.A Gaul.

I like to spend Sundays with the dead.Their conversation is most congenial to me.Prowling the streets of Pere-Lachaise,with a map of the netherworld,I seek out the mentors in my head.

The artificial river beaches ripple in the heat, Disney oases of palm trees and sand. The day slowly evolves like a game of pétanque.

Then, one morning, the cafe opposite is open again. The shutters are up everywhere. Workers are hurrying along, grabbing something to eat.

No time, no time.

Thursday, July 08, 2010

Zinc Cafe (2ieme Arrondissement)

A ballon of rosé, and an oeuf mayonnaise,

That’s all.

I sit staring into space.

Space stares into me.

The waiters practice the art of indifference

With supercilious expertise.

I am part of the furniture,

Not here at all,

Yet so ridiculously alive.

Believe it or not,

My greatest lies have been my greatest truths.

Keep it simple, I tell myself,

Keep out of trouble, can’t you?


The glistening leaves on the pavement

After the autumn rain,

The leaf-smell in my nostrils,

Heady as cocaine...-

That child’s sailboat launched

In a Tuileries fountain

One bright afternoon...

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

Translator

To live is to translate.

These are my horrors; cave paintings of a damned mind...

Impossible exactitude drives me on,

Endlessly rewriting the world,

To resemble some perfect original.

Normality conspires to reclaim

The oddness in these words,

To turn a carnival into a shopping centre.

Can I catch here and there a motif, a refrain

From out of the chaos?

What will foreign eyes appropriate,

What will they assimilate of this?

Find a style of being,

Such is my imperative since birth,

And the knack is not easily won.

What is my natural habitat?

I have not found it yet,

Not on these streets or in these days

Or in this country or any other.

A life spent at the borders,

Busy with espionage and contraband,

Is my calling; the world hangs

On a semi-colon.

Have I misread the situation again?

Misunderstanding is a way of life,

A way of getting by.

Too many compromises

Hedge me in my neverland,

But I press on towards the next crossroads.